My passion for website development died

My passion for website development died


Hello YouTube how’s it going so today
we’re going to be talking about my passion for website development and why
that passion has dwindled down over the years and basically it all started when
I was in secondary school I started making flash games because I could
create these flash games and have amazing feedback but also so I played in
my lunchtime and they won’t be blocked by filters but his name I in creations
so it was a win-win really because I was constantly learning but also constantly
getting away with being able to play games and then my friend introduced me
to being able to download runescape and having your own private server so I
downloaded this myself and started playing around with it trying to do
different things to make characters DS specific stuff and put my designs and
stuff into it as well so it was really cool but that wasn’t quite what I wanted
to do so I basically went into animal care at college wulfings went into
animal care for a year they then took me to one side at the end of the year and
said like do you want to continue taking this route or do you want to go to
computing where we can see you’re a lot stronger at I’m so I basically took root
of computing and went to another college to do some to do three years of
computing courses and it is basically more of a generalized computing course
to do with programming graphic design web development and some of the various
bits so during this time I sort of found more of a love for web development over
all the other subjects and then on my like final year I did a media or web
media corks which was just more abroad aspect of website creation and that’s
what kind of stuck with me so then after college I was applying left right center
for jobs and I found my first website development job in Cornwall fool places
and it lasted three weeks great three weeks basically what happened was they
were looking for someone at mid-level to senior level position but they were
paying a junior salary so basically I came in thinking oh yeah they wanted
junior they’re gonna you know end up hanging a junior salary they need a
junior dev I took really well for the interview and then started my first day
and they were like okay we want you to make this website get on with it so I
was like okay great what do I do so I just put my head down
tried to do everything I could struggled so much and then after three
weeks day to meet one side at lunch time and just said really sorry we’re gonna
have let you go and I knew it’s coming because you know I was struggling so
much and and yeah I just had to go home run my wife who was my god from that
time up to say I’ve lost my job he’s come back
luckily I managed to go back to a previous job as a cashier so that was
good and then I I got back put myself back up again and
started applying for more web development jobs because at the time I
was still very passionate and I knew that was the thing I wanted to do so
then I found a apprenticeship role in Devon and I basically started before the
apprenticeship enrollment officially started which was probably one of my
biggest having mistakes because I was so I came on as a contract being paid free
pound fifty an hour which is terrible wage I was how sharing with a friend
and I was paying half his rent I was also paying half my rent at home because
my girlfriend or my wife and I at the time had our own flat so you know I had
to pay half for the flat at home and then half for my friend’s house yeah and
it was stressful very very stressful so whilst I was at work I was trying to you
know do things on the side trying to make his side hustle and what I didn’t
realize was they monitored every eye every piece of activity you did they
monitored and they took me to a size twice and they basically said like they
can see me on Facebook and stuff and then the third time when they kept I
came in and they said look we’ve been monitoring you we’ve seen that you’re
trying to make money on the side and we’re gonna let you go and that was
literally a week before my apprenticeship was officially about to
start so I know I done wrong and it was definitely my fault for doing that but
you know I guess it’s hindsight I know a time I was okay I bands back up and
started fighting for more positions I went home that day taught my wife and
she was absolutely furious we’re both very upset but we both managed to pick
ourselves back up and then I managed to work in the same place she was working
at design until I find another but web position I
then find a new place which I was there for a year and three months and you know
is really it went really well I was there for a year three months and it was
a really good year of being that they basically started struggling with money
and had a let a few people go and I was unfortunately one of those people but
thankfully the company downstairs needed someone to start a soon stay good so
when I finished up with this place I went downstairs and start boredom but
during this time I really struggled with sort of depression and anxiety and if I
took any days off I would at nighttime I just couldn’t get to sleep and I’d be
sick all the time was literally puking up until there’s nothing left it was
absolutely terrible had to go doctors and you know started speaking to someone
for therapy and it was a horrible experience but during my time with this
company I was the only developer and I felt like I needed to be in place where
it was more developers and this company the atmosphere was just terrible no one
cared for being now they’re all just all very droney and it was like let’s copy
this website edits it a bit give it to this client and it was just a terrible
ethos I didn’t like working out at all and
also during this time I was still suffering with depression and anxiety
and they just didn’t help or understand any of that so I needed to find
somewhere else and again I was in free mop trial and I
started looking and applying for elsewhere and then I found another job
somewhere else and they were a great company to be with I finally found I
could never place where I could be happy until the previous owners sold up and
they falsely inflated their company to the new owner and the new owner for it
was making a lot more money than that actually was and he actually managed to
sue them for a lot of money because of the position they put him in but it just
wasn’t enough and he had to let people go and black
people made it being made redundant I was those people again and so I had to
start looking elsewhere and I found another position I wished last days six
months so basically they put me on a free month trial and I worked three days
three months I was struggling somewhat like I wouldn’t say massively struggling
but I was somewhat struggling but struggling enough for them to sort of
notice and be like we can see you’re struggling and what we’re going to do is
extend your trial to six months because they really liked me as a person which
was really nice so they extended it to six months and I was just like write
this it’s time to sort of knuckle down and get to it but I just wasn’t guides
for something how basically say after day six months they said look really
sorry when I let you go so then I had to find somewhere else and luckily I’ve
been quite lucky with job searches if I’m honest I’ve managed to find him very
short time spans so I’m really grateful for that
so I found this new place and I was there for over two years and it went
really great they treated everyone like family
it was an amazing atmosphere everyone was his friends with everyone
it was it was really good and then you probably guessed it by now but they
struggled with sales had to let people go I was one of those people and then I
met so now of I in my business my aim for development business I’m now a
contractor and I kind of want to get more into freelancing as well but it’s
kind of killed that passion I wants out all this like losing my job all the time
has just killed my passion for web development in that industry so I’m kind
of sort of exploring other avenues now YouTube it’s one of them blogging just
you know trying to get maybe some other kind of source of income which could
potentially become my main source of income and that’s pretty much it that’s
my story I hope you enjoyed this one if you did please smash that like button
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see you guys in the next one

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