I Didn’t Like Gay People – YouTuber KARIM JOVIAN’s Story

I Didn’t Like Gay People – YouTuber KARIM JOVIAN’s Story


I grew up in Queens, New York. While attending middle school I witnessed
quite a number of homophobic incidents. And because of that, I became acclimatized to it all. At that time, being gay was seen as a big
no. It was seem as wrong and you quickly became
teasing material. Being exposed to all of the hate towards the
gay community, I quickly became homophobic. Hating on gay people became part of my lifestyle. And helping them was out of the question. So I would often witness guys being beaned
and would never offer assistance. There was a point in my life that I developed
such a hatred for gays. I could not comprehend the fact that a man
could have feelings for another man in the way I could have feelings for a woman. I had a guy friend I often hung out with. And this one time we were playing handball. And I notice he started touching and complimenting
me. I ignored it at first. But as the game progressed it became overbearing
for me and I felt violated. I told him to stop and he started to play
aggressively but later touched me again. I lost it and I yelled at him. I asked if he was gay and insulted him and
told him to quit touching me. He laughed and told me he had feelings for
me and proceeded to touch my stomach. At that moment it was like a fuse blew in
my brain. I punched him, pushed him into the wall
and swung him head first into the street. I remember breaking his glasses and gashing
his face in. A part of me believed it was self defense
while another part of me couldn’t believe that I actually hurt someone I knew to that
extent. I then started high school with an anti-social mindset. I was a book nerd. Always organized and often kept to myself. The school bullies quickly picked up on that
and I became a target for them. They would call me gay and yell derogatory
terms like faggot and stupid fairy in the halls. It escalated to the point where no one would
want to be around me and I became an outcast. My classmates would secretly ask me if I was
gay. I always told them no but I knew they didn’t
believe me. Not long after I started college and felt like this was a chance for me to break out
of my shell. I was happy that high school was over and
that I could move away from all the negativity and start fresh. A few months later I joined theatre class
and it was there that I was exposed to many talented people. Many of them were gay and bisexual so at
first I was hesitant. I was still scared of gay people and confused. As time went by and we worked together I started
to become more open minded and made some great friendships in theatre class. My first close friend I made was gay. He was super kind and made me feel like
family. It was almost surreal. I had a gay friend. Later on in my college years, I had an experience
with a gay college professor. He made me feel comfortable in my own skin
and always believed that I could do anything. I always suffered from low self esteem and
felt ashamed of my height. Then one time he stopped me and told me
something that always stuck with me up until this day. He said, “You look real and you’re great
just as you are and that’s what art and theatre needs.” It was a line that gave me a whole new prospective
on life and gave me the confidence I needed. All of this made me think back to the days
of me being immature and inconsiderate of people’s feelings. I wonder how my old friend feels now and
I hope I haven’t affected him in a negative way and I hope he forgives me. The hate I had wasn’t me. It was just a by-product of what was around
me. I got a taste of what it felt like to be
treated differently in high school and often wonder if I wasn’t picked on would I have
changed my views on gays. In a way I’m thankful for my high school
days because it truly did open my eyes to what gays go through on a daily basis. Now I’m an aspiring actor with a great
You Tube following and I’m going to keep working hard and chase my dreams with no hate
in my heart. It feels liberating. We see hate all the time in this world and
it seems like a common path. So let’s pull away from that and move towards
less hatred.

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    AnneTheNightFury Studios

    Okay, this dudes best friend must have not been smart. If you want someone to like you, you don’t wanna touch them all the time when they don’t like it!

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    Kamsi Mgbojirikwe

    You dont touch people if they dont like it, especially if they told you to stop strictly, whether ur homo, bi, nor straight. If there aiming for your no no zones(ass,chest,stomach) just like the orange hair glasses wearing kid in the video, its defienltly okay to use self defense, but not as harsh.

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    Zabdy De leon

    You know they can be gay or lesbian people liking you but if it's ur choice to be gay or lesbian or support but you don't have to support or be gay

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    Ashton and samanta play

    This once happened in the school cafeteria:
    One random girl : has chocolate on her cheek
    Her friend : licks the chocolate on her face
    Two random guys who are assholes : EW! GAY! YOU TWO LIKE EACH OTHER
    girl : you probably two like fucking each other and when you fuck each other both of you are like "damn you taste so good"
    Everybody in the cafeteria : oOoOOoooooOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH!!!
    Me : I am just- going to leave-

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    clumsy land

    I was like this too! I used to feel weird seeing gay people. You see, I play video games like almost everyday. So my perspective of gay people was completely changed by a video game. So the video game was called Life is strange, and in it there were two girls named max and Chloe. It is actually a really interesting game, but back to the point, I played a prequel on this game, and Chloe was a lesbian. She liked Rachel, another girl, I got really attached but.. ok no spoilers.
    But the thing is, I actually thought Rachel and Chloe ship was really cool. From that point onwards, I started to respect gay people.

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    Sisi LOL

    This one boy in my class uses gay as a swear word, aaaand everyone hates him becuz my friend is bi. We made a bunch of pride drawings and stuck them to a closet in the classroom. That was a fun time🥑

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    Crazy Princess

    I am pansexual (no it's not the same as bi 🙂 ) and I get hated on… A lot. I would hold hands with my girlfriend at school and get called a lesbo. I'm fine with who I am. Even tho I get a lot of hate I ignore it and/or push them away.

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    Aayush Rana

    1:17 Considering the guy was gay. I’m very softhearted for anyone and by seeing his face I felt very bad for him.

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    Mrs Yoongi

    I asked my friend if he was gay he struggles with talking when he says “n-no!” Ik he’s lying but I expect him

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    Nurin Ishan

    I am a muslim and i have a gay friend. I respect him as a friend but didnt mean that i agree with what he's done. I dont hate him but i hate what he has done. The conclusion is lgbt is wrong but not with hating them. Try to show them the right way peacefully.

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    Althea Estrella

    Hey kid your gay👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👨‍❤️‍👨👩‍❤️‍👩

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    I am anonymous however you say it Hi

    I have a question:

    What is so wrong about gay relationship?
    Just tell me, what’s so wrong about it? Just because in your own religion saying “GoD hAtEs GaY” but yet “GoD LoVeS eVeRyOnE” so then which is it? Gay relationships are the same as love, just a little different. So we shouldn’t treat it any different than straight love. It’s immature and disrespectful to hate against gay relationships because, what’s the difference? Let the gays’ voices be heard and let the, show their pride. You have a right to show your love for Christianity or cartoons, so we should also let gay show their love. Good day.

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    Rachel GreeN

    So in health class last year my teacher was saying we shouldn't really use the word "Gay" because people had associated it with, like, bad things, and she wrote Gay= Stupid, Weird and stuff (to show what people thought it meant). A kid in my class then mentioned how weird it would be for the gym teacher to walk in (he had just been in our classroom) and see that on the whiteboard.
    So yeah. That was a fun year.

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    Houndoom 14mystic

    I hate homophobic people like I broke someone's nose once because they told a gay person " fix your brain" I was like f*ck you

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    Symphony Daisy

    me too I also hate gay ppl bc my dorm my classmates Are gay and they are sooooo sassy
    if u Stare to them they will roll their eyes and one time in November my classmate gay and his cousins were playing
    and I was touching a street car she was Soo sweet and clean but when I touched and play with her and my classmate gay he will say "ew kadiri ka collie"
    = "ew your so gross collie"
    He was rude

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    Mark TwT

    You don't have to support the LGBTQ community but you should never discriminate them!
    Like i support it but i can't force my opinion on you! I don't have the right to force you to support them!

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    ThatOneLoserAnimator /Youtuber

    While I dont think that gay people deserve hate, the guy was touching you without consent, so he deserved punishment. Didnt need a face gash tho.

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    PuppyGamer659

    I’m good my school doesn’t care about what sexuality they are.
    So that’s why I’m glad I’m okay with being bi and saying I am at my school.

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    Faiz Ali

    WTH is wrong with bullies? They’ll just pick on anything and make it up but listen to this bullies…
    READING IS NOT GAY, U READ YOUR BOOKS IN CLASS TOO SO IF U SAY THAT READING IS GAY WELL…SUCK IT.
    Don’t be afraid to be yourself, god made you the way he wanted and he thinks your beautiful😊

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    NitroScream2345 Triodayz

    I’m completely fine with gays and lesbians…heck I’m friends with a gay person! lmfao what is ppl’s homophobic problem with gays? Seriously I’m straight however I have NO problem with gay ppl

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    Kieran G

    Just because you read or don’t really like sports doesn’t mean your gay it basically doesn’t make sense IDK what’s wrong with these people if they read books they would know that it’s not gay such brainless jocks

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    Catching Zeez

    I don't like the lgbt community but that doesn't mean I should hate them.. I had a friend who was lesbian, didn't like it but she's still my friend ._.

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    Queen fam Cara

    I am not against it I dot find it weird but I have meany friends that are gay,bi and lesbian and am fine with them but it’s is kind of weird again not against them

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    Edgy Assassin

    I don’t have a thing against gay people but you touch my stomach I don’t care if you’re gay and have feelings for me or not I’ll beat the shit out of you no questions asked, hell I might even kill you.

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    Icee Wolfie

    To all ya’ll rude people saying bad stuff about LGBTQ, f**k you. We do NOT all force sexualities on to people. And the world is already overpopulated enough, gays are keeping it from reaching extreme over population! You’re welcome 😇.

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    Veno Phoenix22

    I drew dragons that had rainbows and everyone thought I was lesbian but I just like colors. Colors are life for me even tho I’m bi…

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    Doggie Goes Dodo

    Not liking gay people is okay, it’s part of people’s religions. Also, it doesn’t have to be about religion, it can just be about what they believe is right. I’m not a huge supporter of the LGBTQ+ community. Even if you don’t support that community, it’s still not okay to bully or judge. ❤️

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    XxSemiraArcandxX YT

    Gays r fine. And who cares who u r no one wouldn't judge you. Sometimes people r mean sometimes people r nice
    That who u r^_^
    And I'm bisexual)
    Sometimes I get bully at school)
    🤗

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